Category: My stories

Don’t miss the great revelation behind “delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart” (Psalm 37:4)

August 27, 2021

“I delighted myself in the Lord. I worshipped, I sang, I served.” My wife continued, “but how does it work when my prayers don’t get answered? I didn’t win the lottery, I didn’t get pregnant last few months, I didn’t get the job I wanted.”

I think many people go through similar experiences and in understanding the verse this way, it understandibly leads to disappointment.

“I think there are two things that I suspect if you chew on, will open up that verse to it’s full potential.” I replied thoughtfully. … More Don’t miss the great revelation behind “delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart” (Psalm 37:4)

Little “Gods”, The Oven and Futility.

February 17, 2021

This post is for the people who are suffering to the brink of being broken, but also for those who haven’t got to that point but want to know the thoughts of a brother that has gone ahead in the journey of longsuffering and impossible adversities.

Dear sufferer, this is for you. I hope this revelation on suffering, the form that God can use, might cause suffering to “lose it’s teeth”, and we can have courage to traverse this season into victory on the other side.

I call this post Little gods, the Oven and Futility.
… More Little “Gods”, The Oven and Futility.

Joseph Prince’s “Give Me This Mountain” (A man that had few years to live reflects)

December 31, 2020

“Give me this mountain”, spoken by Caleb has always had a special place in my heart. It’s stored just above my boxes of disappointments with the world, my near-death experiences and faded scars to where wounds on my body used to be. Today, those boxes are covered by a scarlet cloth that make those boxes that were once decrepit to redemptively unmistakable.

I suppose you can call this blogpost “what Give Me This Mountain!” means to a person with a few years left to live. I hope this blogpost gives you a different perspective from a person who has gone through his “40-year wandering” to add dimensions to an already powerful verse in the Bible. … More Joseph Prince’s “Give Me This Mountain” (A man that had few years to live reflects)

Easter. Hope’s Patient Zero.

April 12, 2020

As a skeptic, you can either think the success of Christianity was the biggest fluke in history that hacked human nature in unreplicatable ways, or wonder, what exactly happened that Easter day?

It’s either the greatest message of hope for a dark world, that the God of all creation came personally to show us how much he loved us, to change us to who we were meant to be and make certain our heavenly citizenship; or it is the greatest mystery to be solved because it made hopelessly selfish and vulnerable men do oddly selfless things. And, this “strange” condition will still be around even after Covid19 dies out. Either one is wondrous to behold. … More Easter. Hope’s Patient Zero.

What to do in a COVID19 financial crisis? Answers from a Christian stock trader.

March 29, 2020

The ability to be brave when everyone is fearful and clear thinking in the midst of chaos does not come naturally. If so, everyone would be millionaires. Instead, people are fearful, selfish, love their status so much that they do selfish and impulsive things in the midst of chaos. In the supermarkets, we see it when people fight over toilet paper. In the financial markets, we buy at stock at 10-year lows, but sell it quickly when it drops another 15%, only to see it spike 40% 1 week later. … More What to do in a COVID19 financial crisis? Answers from a Christian stock trader.

Part 5: Rorschach.

June 24, 2019

As they say, a heart full of scars is a life full of impactful stories. Life is infinitely richer because what others perceive as mundane can trigger any one of those stories. But our hope is that instead of the scars turning our soul dark and inward-looking, that God can arrange those scars to be perfectly in the right place that it actually makes the heart stronger and souls richer. Those stories are now tools for you to heal others, and not reasons for bitterness or unforgiveness. … More Part 5: Rorschach.

Part 4: Redemption.

June 24, 2019

This Abyss, the place of being forgotten, is also the exact place I would find a priceless treasure. What the enemy intended for evil, God can turn it to your good. With God, destroyed foundations can be rebuilt into something bigger, better and can withstand the tests of time. This would be the place that I saw Jesus in a deeper way that I couldn’t appreciate fully over 30 years of being a Christian. You could say that new revelations about Him suddenly brought a newness of relationship with Him, and this newness changed me on the inside, attracted supply and blessings, and purpose started to emerge. … More Part 4: Redemption.

Part 3: Abyss.

May 20, 2019

This Abyss, the place of being forgotten, is also the exact place I would find a priceless treasure. What the enemy intended for evil, God can turn it to your good. WIth God, destroyed foundations can be rebuilt into something bigger, better and can withstand the tests of time. … More Part 3: Abyss.

Part 2: Pariah.

May 8, 2019

Many days, when I would see my disfigured face in the mirror, I contemplated smashing the reflection that reminded me how far I had fallen. And when I realized all I was good for was wasting thousands of dollars of my parent’s money for futile medical treatments, I wanted to take the broken shards and end it all. A slice on the neck or wrist, I would imagine. … More Part 2: Pariah.

What “Seeking God’s Kingdom” looks like to an 8-year-old (and last lights before the Abyss) Part 1

May 1, 2019

After a couple minutes, I remembered that great sorrow in my heart slowly morphed into feeling strangely warmed. I had never felt that feeling before… and even in the future that feeling only came in rare circumstances. Although I was attending Sunday School and Chapel services, that was the day I realized the extent of what God meant to me. … More What “Seeking God’s Kingdom” looks like to an 8-year-old (and last lights before the Abyss) Part 1