Many days, when I would see my disfigured face in the mirror, I contemplated smashing the reflection that reminded me how far I had fallen. And when I realized all I was good for was wasting thousands of dollars of my parent’s money for futile medical treatments, I wanted to take the broken shards and end it all. A slice on the neck or wrist, I would imagine. … More Part 2: Pariah.
After a couple minutes, I remembered that great sorrow in my heart slowly morphed into feeling strangely warmed. I had never felt that feeling before… and even in the future that feeling only came in rare circumstances. Although I was attending Sunday School and Chapel services, that was the day I realized the extent of what God meant to me. … More What “Seeking God’s Kingdom” looks like to an 8-year-old (and last lights before the Abyss) Part 1
I suddenly shuddered. I realized that if I had got my hands “bloody” and won the battle at my former workplace, I would have totally missed out on something so much better! Then I realized that the colleague that stayed behind is actually the one digging for scraps because my old company does not pay well. I realized that by “losing” I won, and him “winning” he actually lost. Such is how the Kingdom works. Matthew 19:30 says
“But many who are first will be last, and many who are last will be first.” … More Farmer to Rocket Scientist. The Kingdom and You.